Trigger

The moments of pain come and go, but always hit with a fierce intensity

The trigger is never the same twice, striking a new sore spot every time

They hit me like waves that threaten to drown me

Feelings I have suppressed come rushing to the surface and I can no longer contain it

My tears run like a waterfall leaving traces down my cheek

Sharp intakes of breath break the silent cries for help

For someone to hold as my emotional instability becomes a physical reality

A shoulder to lean on and a voice of comfort as the memories run deafeningly through my head

An anchor in the storm to ground me in reality

I wish for time to reverse

For one more hug

One more talk

One more song

But it's to late