Pain

Tears
Dripping like melting icicles 
My heart aches for you
I shared your pain but stood helpless by your side
You were my everything
I knew you better than I know myself
You changed
Not in ways anyone else would realise but me
No longer responsive to my calls 
You pulled away from me
I lost you before you were gone
My bundle of joy
My buddy
Not a day passes when I don't think of you
You took part of me when you left 
I will never get it back
I've spent hours by your grave trying to feel close to you again
It's useless
No matter how much I will it
How loud I scream
Or how many tears I cry
I can never bring you back 
My world is bleak